20 February 2014

post tropical

bonjour my friends! 
i hope everyone experiencing this snow-crazed winter with an optimistic attitude--i know it gets tough sometimes. i feel as if everyday is a snow day. i've found myself getting bored and in need of some new activities. all this baking is getting me fat. (though i'd rather be fat and bake than skinny and not eat). i'm back in nh, boston is rather problematic this season. i look forward to the day where grass can be seen again and i can wear shoes without the threat of ruining them due to heavy slush. it's hard to dress cute in such harsh weather! 
here's another week in photos

aint he a cutie? god i love this little man. oh! i forgot to mention, i recently got a gig as a nanny. i am quite content, i love kids and i feel nannying will be perfect for me.
stay warm everyone! 

10 February 2014

stubborn love

blogging in a cafe. that is what i do. im enjoying a warm croissant and the most delicious mocha latte the world has ever known on a tiny wooden round table at boston common coffee co. i'm planning my trip to the uk and catching up of some much over-due reading. (naturally its fitzgerald). i find myself writing down quotes more than actually reading. he is just so brilliant. 
"Well, I can't describe her exactly--except to say that she was beautiful. She was-- tremendously alive". 
"And in the end, we were all just humans...drunk on the idea that love, only love, could heal our brokenness"  
"I wish I'd done everything on this earth with you"
Oh Fitzgerald...you make me swoon.
yesterday was a good day of picture taking, cambridge exploring, and friend hanging. a new (and very lovely) friend of mine picked me up and we went out to brunch at the friendly toast in cambridge; if you're ever in the area and looking for a good place to eat i'd definitely recommend it...just expect a long wait. we then spent the rest of the afternoon taking pictures around the charles and harvard square. 

god i love harvard square. i'm apartment hunting in the area. fingers crossed i find something good!
in the evening i met with my good friend and we just took funny pictures together. 
i love photographing her, we tend to be really immature when we are together but that's the fun in our friendship. everyone needs someone to laugh at their dirty jokes and awkward dance moves. it helps that she is a bombshell so photographing her is rather easy.

i'm very self critical of pictures of myself but i love this one. i think it just categorizes me perfectly. messy hair (i never do my hair), awkward stance, and double-chinned laugh. not to mention, (despite my weird thing against outfit repeating) i wear these overalls all the time. they are my favorite.


05 February 2014

wicked game | deep in thought

i'm on a self journey to find inner peace and serenity. 
i feel like i have lost a lot of people close to me in the past few months and am now living in fear and being overprotective of those i have in my life now. some for understandable reasons, but others for complicated and misunderstood reasons. perhaps this dependency is because of my traveling background; always moving from place to place and having to say more goodbyes than hellos. you'd think at this point in my life change would be easier for me, but instead it just gets more and more painful. i'm at a good place where i love who i am and where i am at. i have an abundance of close friends and am closer to my family than ever before. but then again, maybe this is because fear brings us together--makes you more thankful for what you have. therefore the closer i get to people the more afraid i am to have them taken away so instead of letting nature take its course i drive them away on my own. i'm overbearing and overprotective in unexpected ways. now that i have this down in words i have no other excuse to try to change it. i'm done saying goodbye before i say hello. and no longer will i hold on to things that need to be let free.
i traveled home unexpectedly a few days ago to deal out all of these emotions. i needed the fresh air, the warmth of a wood stove, and the company of family during these tough and emotional times. whether it be from the high stress and sadness caused by an unnecessary illness implicated on someone so dear to my heart, or how i am missing my one year old little brother who's growing up so fast he barely recognizes me every time i walk through the door, or perhaps its just the fact i have fear of losing people, or the sadness i feel for pushing them away. 
i'm in the process of improving myself. due to my currently empty wallet (student problems), rather than shopping (my usual method of therapy) i literally spent 99% of my time these past few days in the kitchen. (full disclosure, there may have been some online shopping done too--arthur george socks you are finally mine). there is something about kneading bread and punching dough that makes you realize everything is going to be ok--even if everything is pointing in the other direction. we all have problems, we all feel stress and sadness, anger and pain. but i have to remember we all have the ability to feel happiness, but that emotion is up to us to find. 

these words are not intended for anyone in particular, though i'm sure some may find closure. but they are meant for me. this is my way of letting go and moving forward.

in my search for this inner peace, i have officially signed up for yoga once again (i used to go regularly until i moved into the city and couldn't find a homey place). i researched and created a check-list of everywhere i want to go/ everything i want to see while in boston this semester. therefore i never have an excuse to dwell on the hardships currently facing my family and i. i also have a two and half month trip to london to look forward to this summer. and above all else, despite how busy i usually am, i will always find time to paint and sketch. i am happiest when i create. 

i have surrounded myself with things that make me happy. being a foodie, anything to do with bread and/ or is french pretty much makes me glow. (dont worry, i'm hitting the gym as soon as i get back).

thank you for listening to my rant and allowing me to share my thoughts. x


02 February 2014

sail to the sun

ive learned over the years that a lot of people can't figure me out. i seem to be all over the map. on the one side there's this girl who loves makeup and jcrew and watches sex in the city everyday then there's this free spirit who is obsessed with live hardcore music and does graffiti on week nights (sorry you're finding out this way mom). its like during the day im cuddled on the couch with tea in hand admiring julia child and beatrix potter while reading fitzgerald then at night im blasting metal and drawing skeletons. this past week i've finally decided it doesn't matter. i don't have to be one thing. so here are 10 facts about me, the things i am certain about: 1) i love art. art of all kinds. renoir is my favorite artist but i follow modern day graffiti artists like im going to be tested on them.  2) i love fashion. from vans to louboutins. one day im in paint splatted overalls with vans and the next im in sky high heels and a princess dress. 3) my two favorite movies are return of the jedi and peter pan. 4) i would make bread every day if i had the time. 5) my old fashioned, 50s housewife (in the best possible way) mom is my best friend. 6) if i dont have at least 5 kids but the time im thirty ill be disappointed. 7) i wouldn't be a fun person to be around if coffee didn't exist. 8) i keep a sketchbook with me at all times. 9) i have an abnormal love for anything with the union jack flag on it. 10) id rather see the world and have a family than be wealthy. 

anyways, here's a collection of images that sums up my past week. from live music to coffee shop art galleries to graffiti hunting with friends.

mural by os gemeos in boston.

what i wore: vintage fozzie bear t shirt, urban outfitters flight suit, betsy johnson socks, & vans.

it was a good week, i hope to have many more like it.